ALWAYS WANTED

photo credits: electronicresponses

you will always want what you don't have

always wanting something you don't have

don't you know what you once had

won't even be in your possession ever again

even if you ever wanted it again

the same problems arise again

the kinds that you keep avoiding

the kinds that you keep on repeating

life isn't just only a broken record

a battle lost by many, but remembered by some

we had some moments, some sparks, some fun

isn't it fun during this time of year

where you can spend lavishly without

without someone bitching in your ear

the kind of thing i always wanted

i always wanted to hold your hand

and tell you the nicest things

in my mind i'm a whirlpool of bad dreams

nightmares after nightmares but

with you, life can be a broken record

but still play perfect melodies

seen you jump from the highest bridge today

but you still faced smack down and on a wet floor

you know these two feet could get you anyway

with toes looking like that, even looking like that

i'm staring at you through a window

and you're making sure you don't read me

every night and wonder what happened next

if you never gave up

but still i'm playing perfect melodies

without you, and thank you

for making me mean

something to you